I am very dissapointed in myself. Hmmp. I seem to be self-defeating lately, but yes, it's objectively true, but that's not going to get my life. Did two all-nighters in a row...so am tired, yet cannot sleep because I messed up my sleeping pattern badly and I still have those journals to write. Imagine that. Btw, I'm in Milan now, suppose to be done with the semester and enjoying travelling, but no, I could not finish those journals. It was 4 am, 1/2 hour before I was suppose to leave for the airport and still had 4 journals left. I suck. I couldn't enjoy the last moments in Budapest properly, the city and the group. Becky was kind, she helped me with last minute preps, staying up late. I packed erradically. I have more stuff than I want with me, so I'm going to try to repack tonight...maybe straighten things out. Man, my shoulders tremble from the backpack. I came out late from the dorms to go to the airport, but thank God, He got me in time to my flight. I have not been good with using time. I also forgot to buy tram/subway passes on my way there, but again, I was so disoriented and nervous that I kept praying that all will work out. I enjoyd being on my own, not having to wait around, consider others...but I am ready to see Paul again!